My Name is Kris and I Blah-g

There is nothing more annoying than indecisiveness…well, that’s not true. Utah drivers, ignorant people and liberals all suck more. But still, I have reached a point where there is this massive void in my brain. Should I work full time or part time? Should I work at all? Can’t I just move into the castle at Disneyland and be a weird hermit that only comes out for crumbs of food that guests drop as they move about the Magic Kingdom? I know it sounds like I am losing it but really, I can’t think of any other time where I couldn’t think at all. Maybe it’s watching the liberal media and listening to the Obama-ites that has made me so dumb? I saw a bumper sticker this morning that said “Republican Health Plan – Don’t Get Sick.” And I felt my IQ lower by about 30 points. I was like Uh? EH? Whaaa?  Seriously…the world has gone mental and it’s taken me along with it. Stop the train. I want off.So, I have a job interview this morning. It’s for the first job I applied for last week and I am feeling so ….BLAAH! What’s the word? It reminds me so much when Michaela was 4 months old and I felt obligated to get back into the workforce. So I thought I’d start off slow and apply a couple places. Well, I got called in for an interview immediately and was offered a job. I cried. I should have been thrilled but I cried. It was aweful. And the job sucked! I was there for over a year and I missed so much of Michaela’s first year and for WHAT! The job SUCKED. In hindsight that ticks me off. Dang it. I won’t get that time back. And I ask myself why did I do it? Was it the money? The responsibility? What? Yeah. I’d chalk it up to obligation. I just felt like I had to go to work. As if being a mom to my baby wasn’t enough. What’s that about? Who did I learn that from? Stinkin’ liberals.  Grr! You make me mad. Now they chide Sarah Palin for being a mom AND working. Hypocrits.So now I have the opportunity to take a step back and slowly start to figure out what to do next.. spend some quality time with Michaela and sit here and pick my nose if I want when what should happen? I get an interview right away? Wait a minute. I thought the economy was in the tank. Why am I going to a job interview so soon? Maybe this is just one of those times where you realize that you aren’t what’s directing your life? Sure you have your agency and you can make choices that can shape the road you’re on. But maybe it’s just not my say this time…