My Name is Kris and I Blah-g

Our house is not known for being high traffic on Halloween. It could be because we live on a cul-de-sac kinda removed from the rest of the houses in the neighborhood. But this year, our street has more children living on it and this year I have managed to decorate the outside of the house. The decorations will be complete by tomorrow night when the pumpkins, black light, fog machine and spooky soundtrack are added. Will it drive people away or lure people in? I dunno. It doesn’t matter. I will say that I have never been a big fan of decorating for Halloween until this year. For some reason I am eager for Halloween this year. In year’s past I would usually gloss over the Halloween decorations in favor of just getting past the holiday so we can get to the real holiday of Christmas. But this year is different. I’m slowing down to enjoy this Halloween more and honestly, Christmas can just wait. I am not even sure how much I am looking forward to Christmas anyway. Christmas is my favorite holiday but it’s been marred this year by it being our first without Mike and a stark reminder of what was going on a year ago. I can’t believe it’s been nearly a year. I feel like if all my years can pass so quickly, living without him knowning I’ll see him soon won’t be so unbearable. But then I run the risk of life passing me by and before I know it, Michaela will have grown and move on and then what? It’s daunting to think of and depressing, too.So, I will slow down and it starts with Halloween. The tombstones are up. The skeleton is emerging from the ground and we plan to yuck it up with pumpkin guts and lots of food. It should be fun.