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This morning I woke up earlier that I wanted to. Between weird dreams and me thinking about the night Mike died, I couldn’t lay there any longer. Why was I thinking about Mike in this way? I mean, how many more times could I replay that night in my head? Yet here I was thinking what I could have done differently to shield Michaela from what transpired that night almost 4 years ago. I know…this is really an inspirational uplifting Christmas message but to know me and to know what this experience is like for me, is to know that these moments where I feel the most vulnerable and sad happen in the least convenient times. Continue Reading…
Mixed feelings about today… On one hand… 40…. GAAAAAAAH!!!! On the other?? 40…. Hmmm! This may be the start of something good?
My 30s were certainly a mixed bag. Yesterday Michaela asked me how old I was when she was born.Forget the fact that I gotta continue to school the girl on her math… I told her that I was 30, just a few months shy of my 31st birthday. I said, “Did you know that you were a wish come true on my birthday candles?” She gave me a strange look and I told her that on my 30th birthday I wish SO hard for a baby and thankfully 3 weeks later I discovered that I was pregnant. I reached that milestone thinking that I just HAD to have a kid because I was 30 and 30 was OLD…. *sigh*
I can safely say that the first half of my 30s was awesome. It really was super. The 2nd half sucked ass – stale moldy ass with warts. So yeah, I am heading into my 40s with optimism. I am a little perturbed that my hubby will always be that perpetual 30-something, though while I continue to wrinkle and sag. He and I will have a talk about “fairness” some day.
So, anywho… I woke up this morning to find this on my Facebook wall…
Flippin’ SAAAAA-WEEET!!!! Thanks, Belva!!
Okay…First, DON’T GET EXCITED! Well… you can get excited because I know a lot of you do but not about THIS. This is our own little homemade video of our memories from our trip to Florida and the cruise. We were being well-behaved fans and we did NOT sneak any video of the concerts or events that we were not supposed to. We waited until the last day to break out the camera and that was because I didn’t want to take actual pictures of all the doors. It occurred to me that last morning that we hadn’t used the camera at all and that it would be a great way to see the doors “quickly.” I say that with my tongue firmly planted in my cheek as when we returned from the trip I found that I had over 2 hours of video to go through. The reason why is that since I was manning the still camera, I gave nearly ALL of the videography duties to Michaela….. who’s 9 years old…and loves to talk to the camera. Continue Reading…
